Monster In My Mind

*Artwork By Jesse Draxler*

Ashes as they fall all around me

Concrete punching my bare naked feet

Flames consume the air around me

The pressure tenderizing me like meat

Running from the monster I have become

I swallow the taste of defeat

I race away as my feet become numb

As I fear that our eyes shall meet

The skyscrapers scrape away at the day

I race onwards, hastening my heartbeat

As I see the sky begin to fade away

And the air grows thick like concrete

The air swallows me like the inside of a whale

I fear living without breath for several days

My skin glows white as it begins to turn pale

And squint my eyes to avoid its gaze

Beyond the horizon the air turns to haze

I turn my back to avoid the bright blaze

I continue to press on, imagining praise

As I continue to traverse this impossible maze

Fearing the oncoming weight

Will come crashing down

And crash into me like a wave

As I feel myself beginning to drown

Losing sight of my direction

As the road in front of me grows dark

I try to hide, seeking protection

Before the monster can make its mark

I find that it is too late

For me to claim a win

The monster has claimed this house

And I am the guest now begging to be let in

It consumes my life, my essence, well-being

As I feel my senses start to drain, fleeting

One would assume death to be freeing

But I still see no point in assuming it has meaning

Losing to the monster that I had created

Was only a symptom of what had been done

Destruction and chaos of this world consumed me

And our journey has only just begun.